tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-40354942011-04-21T17:38:33.313-07:00(i'm just another one of you, trying to stay sane)Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.comBlogger401100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-1085408566852630302004-05-24T07:18:00.000-07:002004-05-24T07:22:46.853-07:00

I'm at work again. Tryin to figure out what my next step will be. Hrm. I guess my next step this morning should be that I work on the stuff that needs to be done. Tomorrow, however, is a new day. I believe I shall look for further employment, as my current financial status is not majestic enough to merit a mention in a public place, such as this. Tomorrow I seek. And fear not, I will continue my

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-1085079933793784152004-05-20T11:47:00.000-07:002004-05-20T12:07:15.820-07:00

Well, I've not updated this blog in like... 8 months? For good reason, however. Allow me to explain:After my last post, last July, I was very frustrated. Why? My girlfriend lived 1800 miles away, my car (read: money pit) was a piece of crap, I felt as if I was going to drop of exhaustion (physical and emotional) and it wasn't going to change significantly (from what I could see) for some time.

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-954126032003-06-07T12:38:00.000-07:002003-06-07T12:41:04.000-07:00

so due to the sheer amount of things that have gone not right today, i've developed several nervous reactions to things that go on around me. if for instance, the earth is round, at any given point in time, i get a sort of twitch inside my inner ear. it sounds like a slight rumbling, as if i'm sitting amongst a gentle rolling earthquake. the sky being blue aggravates me so much that i've started

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-936075332003-05-01T11:13:00.000-07:002003-05-01T11:13:33.530-07:00

for you VII whispers gradually more meaningful sitting under the stars watching the moon sink below the horizon until the stars glisten with our eyes almost pitch black.. only bright enough to see the others silhouette wrapped within each others open arms head on the other’s shoulder layering our feelings upon one another until we are made, (gradually) completely of each other

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-921863752003-04-07T17:53:00.000-07:002003-04-07T17:53:10.356-07:00

click

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-907796122003-03-15T14:43:00.000-08:002003-03-15T14:43:59.640-08:00

for you VIpowder blue memories passing through your eyes staring into your pupils watching the reflection of the moon the moon sets it's so warm the sun rises your pupils dilate, and i can see, straight down, into your eyes

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-905606222003-03-11T18:39:00.000-08:002003-03-12T09:13:32.000-08:00

isn't this lovely. every time my moods start to look up the happiness and contentment sets in but until the hammer drops and the tension builds and i go into self destruct pain and masochism do nothing but envelop my mind that wasn't even a real sentence. but i don't want to change anything. read it and be confused.

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-903466852003-03-07T23:40:00.000-08:002003-03-07T23:40:02.123-08:00

i wish to wander into the dark whispering skyward hoping you can hear stinging screams pounding on the walls beating on the sides of my mind cringing with every breath you take because it only leads to another sigh flinching with every drop you drink for it leads only to another tear in your eye every movement you make leads another bone to break i can’t see the emptied sky piano pounding

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-896702562003-02-24T14:35:00.000-08:002003-02-24T14:35:29.076-08:00

yes. i am obsessed with alice. dreams are my favorite times, and the fact that i cannot remember most of them is greatly saddening, honestly. i wish i could remember them, that way i know i'm still alive when i wake up. when there's a void between going to bed and waking up, it's as if i wasted the time. but dreams make all that go away. but 3 inches high is such a wretched height. smokin on my

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-890955912003-02-14T07:44:00.000-08:002003-02-17T19:16:19.000-08:00

for you V More than anything. I can feel your words, to the core. My bones tremble when you say those three words. I wanna drown in your sweet breath and feel the warmth beneath the skin fusing with my own, we become as one.

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-890126952003-02-12T20:00:00.000-08:002003-02-12T21:06:06.000-08:00

for you IVremembering why our thoughts go by whispering in the cooling night warming me i can feel you by my side feeling your breath .. on my eyes embracing wishes iloooooooooveyou (my eyes glaze and dry, wishing i could just listen to your softest breath)

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-889005852003-02-10T23:45:00.000-08:002003-02-10T23:45:54.566-08:00

all i know is that you shouldn't sleep and chew gummy bears at the same time i think that'll be kinda hard tho... they're sooo tasty. i don't think i'd be able to resist. *wink wink*

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-887435502003-02-07T21:17:00.000-08:002003-02-07T21:17:46.090-08:00

for you IIItorn tears caught in the air crystallized inside your gaze waves crashing on the shore while we’re drifting on the sand humming a whispered promise passing from lip to air to lip unspoken, we stare pupil wraps around pupil thoughts like honey unspoken.. we’re warm

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-884757212003-02-03T07:40:00.000-08:002003-02-03T07:40:49.000-08:00

for you II curled into a blanket, I’m still cold transient images flashing in my eyes dreams come, then evaporate subsiding sighs follow, and I’m asleep listening to your heartbeat feeling your pulse whispering into your ear telling you.. it’s alright..

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-882461382003-01-29T19:37:00.000-08:002003-01-29T19:37:34.140-08:00

sun bleeds to the sky sky to moon moon pulls me through the clouds eyes to the ozone smile to the sun loss painted white opens the tumultuous sea just like that ... yea ... giggling to the stars that's it.. i've fallen.. mmm... sweet sanity... music like nerve pulses at a slow and steady million beats per second letting a belly laugh inside my catatonic gaze never wavers waves of the sea hissing

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-882136472003-01-29T09:05:00.000-08:002003-01-29T19:38:45.000-08:00

raise the fist above just enough to shatter the mold the crystal heart explodes shards flying, tearing your eyes jagged shrapnel moves from the sky and down below whispering sounds upon the ground self destruct, i think i've become numbing feeeeeling dripping down your throat drunk on the mass of hate cancerous candlelight passing out upon self restraint immovable

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-879428322003-01-23T22:04:00.000-08:002003-01-23T22:04:53.833-08:00

careening out of the stars hurtling towards the earth blinding blur from the passing sun fire on my toes, contact plunging into the bluish void impact slows the descent watching the hazy fog and the blinding sun fade the void envelops my eyes ice forms over my mind numb here I am sitting in this cocoon a notion of returning to the surface keeps my blood pumping, slowly a whisper ‘you can do it’

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-877061842003-01-19T18:46:00.000-08:002003-01-19T18:48:59.000-08:00

for you sun bleeds into the ocean and the sky becomes the sea i wish to become the moon so the night shadow wash over me whisper a wish through our land and rest your soul upon my hand the wish that never came true a wish of beauty we've nothing but warmth and nothing but the sea i'm so lost...

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-875200982003-01-15T21:19:00.000-08:002003-01-18T14:18:57.000-08:00

oppositionwindchimes in the open air effervescent moon descending from the sky the smell of the sun and the taste of the stars echoes through a peaceful night abrasive dreams haunts the void cringing softlydie die why can’t I just go to sleep and why doyou continue to torture me laughing into the wound, spitting salt and screaming, screaming, it’s all your fault destitute dreams, echo from the

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-874635032003-01-14T22:57:00.000-08:002003-01-14T22:57:36.270-08:00

whispering again to the sky giggling into the moon forsaken plains of consciousness depraved empty eyes bleeding tears whispering, whispering extricated nothingness and only our void remains

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-874083272003-01-14T00:31:00.000-08:002003-01-14T00:38:52.000-08:00

a plea (se)oh if only you would just try to see blinded by the light of the eternity sinking in a cesspool of darkness wishing our luminary allowed to exist if you would just pry open your eyes you'd behold the beauty of the transient butterflies our humble dreams billow to fantasies opening our dark eyes whispering promises to she and the sea falls upon the broken sky our minds open to

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-873287512003-01-12T17:36:00.000-08:002003-01-12T17:36:20.340-08:00

goway goway don't wanna see i don't care just get away from me you don't care how could you get away i can't go on without you as i'm buried in a crushing wave die die I can't go on punching through the broken glass broken hands and protruding points haunted always by the mystery of consciousness answers wish i was with them meanwhile we're here screaming indiscriminately at empty mirrors and

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-871523162003-01-08T21:58:00.000-08:002003-01-08T22:10:00.000-08:00

pendulous exhaustion swings from sky to sky, an eye fades into the crescent moon lost a tear in the ocean and now it must be found listen to the rift’s hiss standing upon the shore crashing of waves upon the unspoken listen to the wind whispers the unheard insignificant suggestions maybe there’s something… there. whispering wishes into the sky hoping the wind flows in your direction whispering

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-871006242003-01-07T22:38:00.000-08:002003-01-07T22:38:22.000-08:00

drifting through fields crystalline horizons bow the void comes from above envelops symbiotic sighs wishing some kind of relief sitting staring it in the face wake up and stab the roses sticklers scarring the flesh whip your hair in my direction roll your eyes into mine i'm different than all the rest please, please, turn your head before the tear sets aflame

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-870989962003-01-07T21:48:00.000-08:002003-01-08T21:59:39.000-08:00

i wishi couldcollectfeelings.thesamewaypeoplecollectrocksorseashells.i wouldneverstopsearching.holdtheminyourhand,turnthemover,holdthemclosetoyourheart,feelthem,savorthem.i wonder what love tastes like.

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-869819352003-01-05T17:04:00.000-08:002003-01-05T17:06:35.000-08:00

pictures in my head reapeating over icicles from the ceiling fall into the still water ripples into the sunset and falls off the earth the void gulps the sun into it's waiting arms and you wish we could see things as they are i already can beautiful, trust me, i will guide you i seem to have lost my tongue all i can do is whisper in my head you call me catatonic, i think i'm sane please listen

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-869353652003-01-04T14:16:00.000-08:002003-01-04T14:18:32.000-08:00

squinting into the moon's glare pupils dilated larger than the iris sleep taunts from dreams long ago dancing on our grave we sing eternal memorial to the pointless parades welcoming the weight of deathpaint listening to the extrication within wistful interests darken behind your mind the five senses bleeding into each other imagination becomes reality obsessed with dreams forotten and darkness

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-868838722003-01-03T09:50:00.000-08:002003-01-03T10:00:34.000-08:00

rattlesnake skin sky cracks disintegrates before our eyes the clouds nothing more than delusional wishes cleansing our minds fading out and slipping in wishes envelop our tongue tasting wine intoxicated we've all become darker than the noonday sun listen to me now here please just give me that sweet sweet release

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-868091002003-01-01T18:53:00.000-08:002003-01-02T15:55:47.000-08:00

passionate remembrances forced into the sky hate our feelings we use to force down sparkling omniscient rainbow waves crash the shore shatters and there's nothing more the sky screams threats of hatred and self destruction and we simply cringe into the sand, laying flat as we can staring into the moon's eyes rising on the horizon effervescent clouds press inward crushing our eyes the stars

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-866550062002-12-29T02:12:00.000-08:002002-12-30T03:49:51.000-08:00

look at the horizon clouded black incessantly doom-like hatred an evasive cloud always behind you no matter how fast you turn can’t hear the sounds of the echoing tears washing up onto the shore they’re waves now you know used to be low tide then the tidal wave hit and it’s not been the same since can you hear me? listen to me i can’t do this alone please help me carry me off this ledge into

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-866156922002-12-27T22:09:00.000-08:002002-12-29T19:31:40.000-08:00

symphonic screams constructed deception a simple blind wish upon the midnight dawn meteorite shatters the sky void black shards tear the air a moving abyss, we start to lose mm, taste the uncertainty listen, you can hear the fires and feel the painted roses eyes the sparks hit the sky the wishes fade away feel what i’ve felt and sigh and sleep through another day

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-864690462002-12-23T22:32:00.000-08:002002-12-23T22:32:24.586-08:00

falsification realization restoration ceasation

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-864679592002-12-23T21:59:00.000-08:002002-12-23T23:36:14.000-08:00

lost in the graying eyesa crimson streak embossed in the sky descending past the horizon delilah, where've you gone, dar(k)ling clouds enshrouding unseen pupils lahes fall our whispers die the color seeps from the iris and runs into the sky

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-864224982002-12-22T21:12:00.000-08:002002-12-22T21:14:18.000-08:00

golden eyes glimmer from the shadows interested only in the plunder gained i welcome the moon's softened glow only feeling our thoughts restrained where'd you go.. now i'm here all alone the word empty becomes a worn cliché just one more straw.. and the crack of bone sobbing, listen to the words you used to say pulsating warmth, a bitter memory now i wish you'd tear out my eyes do it for me,

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-863545192002-12-21T00:04:00.000-08:002002-12-21T11:58:33.000-08:00

he finds meaning in other people’s suffering, sees the similarities, feels the thoughts lying underneath, sings along with the tortured choruses. he sees with the blind ones, feels with the numb ones. we’re all thinking the same thoughts, you know. feeling the same emptiness. losing the same mind.

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-863541562002-12-20T23:48:00.000-08:002002-12-21T11:56:48.000-08:00

desperate sobs tarnished palms wistful lies lost inside hate builds like a cloud descending from the mountaintops shrouding the empty screams of the tortured thoughts dead within are the wishes that never came true the lost hope, the memories of you they're all waiting here, until i sleep forcing their way inside, hands of ice creep piercing thorns dig into my soul losing every battle i'm out

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-863350332002-12-20T13:31:00.000-08:002002-12-20T16:53:58.000-08:00

glazen eyes focus a spectacle unseen hoping to glimpse a facet of fantasy drifting downward into a perfect spiral pretty pretty picture ripples in the water a wave in our eye whispers to the sky

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-862883572002-12-19T13:55:00.000-08:002002-12-19T13:55:47.000-08:00

resonating echoes from within smoke rings of memories tears descend from the horizon opening canyons filled with salt a bloated sun drifts upon the sky fire descends into your eyes

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-862572062002-12-18T21:49:00.000-08:002002-12-18T21:49:11.000-08:00

blackened by the flames our tears fall from the skies insignia of willfully forgotten hate now i've seen what lies beneath

Willhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15368699187706772740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4035494.post-862357322002-12-18T13:07:00.000-08:002002-12-18T21:51:30.000-08:00

welcome to my blog. this is going to be where i post all my rambling thoughts and noise enjoy

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